Moved In / Weekend Update!

I'm officially moved in and organized (mostly). It was a rollercoaster of emotions when I moved in.
Here are the events of me moving in (9/12 Sat.)
1. 7AM Vibes ~ Having to drive to SD at 7am with my mother.
I thought it was going to be her lecturing me but it was pleasantly to my surprise that it wasn't a session of "Let's see how many things I can lecture to my daughter about." It makes me feel like I'm more grown up than I think I am. Like my mom is actually talking to me about random things and it was so delightful (not sure if that's the right word). Anyways, it was just a whole other side for me to love and miss about her.
(Though one thing she did mention was of picking a potential husband, which is a whole 'nother blog post about me and my boyfriend)
2. Arriving there and realizing my landlord isn't picking up the phone
Not that this was a problem but it was so hard to get the key out of the lockbox.
3. Finally settling in and seeing that there was ONE parking pass instead of TWO.
Sigh. This was the biggest issue of the day. Both my apartment mates took a parking pass leaving me no parking passes for my parents (or Robby)! I was freaking out considering I had to think of parking solutions for my parents and boyfriend! Luckily, my landlord told us we had designated parking spots whether we had the permit or not. Whooooo!
4. Subway and Ikea.
Considering I freaking love Subway and it was so good. I did not enjoy it because mother nature visited me that day and I was having the worst cramps so I couldn't eat it all. Luckily, Ikea was wonderful in all ways and it was so fun shopping with my whole family. We haven't done that in awhile.
5. Adult Legos.
We went back to the apartment and me and my mom watched my dad and sister set up the desk and chair for me. It was extremely entertaining.
6. Relaxation.
Went to dinner at my uncle's shabu shop and we just relaxed.
The next day, they left and it was so bittersweet. But it was nice to finally get out and organize my stuff and showered as my boyfriend was on his way!!!
List of Stuff that We Did
1. Got chinese food.
2. Watched movies.
3. Cooked an amazing steak and pasta dinner.
I love cooking.
Steak: Salt and pepper.
Pasta: Buitoni tortellini, pesto, garlic, mushrooms.
Bread: Pesto smeared on.
4. Watched more movies.
5. Had an amazing time and it was his birthday!

So now that he's gone, this is officially my first day  (well, he left this morning) of being alone in the apartment. I seriously have the best boyfriend in the whole world. He is extremely sweet to me and anything I want he's willing to compromise. I couldn't be any happier other than the fact that he isn't here. This goodbye was harder than usual. I think it's because I don't want to be in the apartment alone. It's so weird being by myself. I know in the previous post I was excited about being by myself but now that it's actually here. It's bittersweet. Bitter because of the fact that I miss my boyfriend and I don't really have anyone to talk to but sweet because I can just do whatever I want. But mostly, bitter because I don't like to be alone.
I'm waiting around on one of my friends from here to text me back on whether or not we're hanging out. I don't like flaky people but I'm going to shoulder shrug it off.
 I'm just gonna relax by myself and carry on.
What am I doing tonight?
Well, after I finish this blog post, I am planning on relaxing and gonna eat a bomb chicken pot pie that my mom got me. I'm so excited.
Will update you on my loneliness and plans later. Goodnight.

It's time for me.

Tomorrow, I will be moving into my new apartment. Being this is the third time that I'm moving out of my house and into an apartment for school, it is a different feeling than what I have felt before. Usually I feel more excited about what is about to come. The fun, the freedom and just college. This year though, I feel a little uneasy. There are many things that I'm uneasy about. The first thing that comes to mind when I think about my stresses is my education. As a third year, I think a lot about my future and what is going to happen. HOWEVER, I have come to terms that I don't know what I'm going to do with my life and that's okay. We're all part of trying to figure things out and it's going to come to me. It is a huge realization that has taken me this whole summer to come to.
The second thing that is different from previous years to this year is how much I'm going to miss my family. My mom, specifically. I feel like this summer, me and my mom have really gotten closer than we ever have. We just talked about more mature things and it was really nice. I want to do better in school for her. I feel like I need to make a promise to myself to really do my best this year. The past two years of my college career, I don't believe I have been trying my hardest. I procrastinate and don't commit 100% of myself into my studies. Maybe admitting that I have this problem is the first step I need to do? I'm hoping that blogging about my experiences and what I have to do will help me with this.
Besides this promise to myself, the last thing that has been stressing me out lately is being alone for a couple of days with COMPLETE freedom. I can go anywhere I want and do anything I want. It's going to be the first real "adult" time. Like I'm really growing up. I'm have the whole apartment to myself. I was really nervous about it, I have never been by myself before for a long period of time. I've had maybe like a 24 hour period but that was on campus. I am off campus this year with a car and endless opportunities. It makes me nervous because I don't want to feel lonely. However, after talking to my best friend from back home (Marissa) I'm excited to have some time for myself. It's going to be a new experience and extremely rewarding. I think I'm gonna go to the beach, the mall and just have some me time. (Future note: make a list of things I need to do). I'm even thinking about not contacting anyone during this time, just being by myself. It's going to be a very different experience and one that I'm gonna really try to take advantage of. It's time for me. 

Side note: I'm going to try to blog my experiences this year every day (or at least every other day) and just have a place to vent about whatever is bothering me.