It's time for me.

Tomorrow, I will be moving into my new apartment. Being this is the third time that I'm moving out of my house and into an apartment for school, it is a different feeling than what I have felt before. Usually I feel more excited about what is about to come. The fun, the freedom and just college. This year though, I feel a little uneasy. There are many things that I'm uneasy about. The first thing that comes to mind when I think about my stresses is my education. As a third year, I think a lot about my future and what is going to happen. HOWEVER, I have come to terms that I don't know what I'm going to do with my life and that's okay. We're all part of trying to figure things out and it's going to come to me. It is a huge realization that has taken me this whole summer to come to.
The second thing that is different from previous years to this year is how much I'm going to miss my family. My mom, specifically. I feel like this summer, me and my mom have really gotten closer than we ever have. We just talked about more mature things and it was really nice. I want to do better in school for her. I feel like I need to make a promise to myself to really do my best this year. The past two years of my college career, I don't believe I have been trying my hardest. I procrastinate and don't commit 100% of myself into my studies. Maybe admitting that I have this problem is the first step I need to do? I'm hoping that blogging about my experiences and what I have to do will help me with this.
Besides this promise to myself, the last thing that has been stressing me out lately is being alone for a couple of days with COMPLETE freedom. I can go anywhere I want and do anything I want. It's going to be the first real "adult" time. Like I'm really growing up. I'm have the whole apartment to myself. I was really nervous about it, I have never been by myself before for a long period of time. I've had maybe like a 24 hour period but that was on campus. I am off campus this year with a car and endless opportunities. It makes me nervous because I don't want to feel lonely. However, after talking to my best friend from back home (Marissa) I'm excited to have some time for myself. It's going to be a new experience and extremely rewarding. I think I'm gonna go to the beach, the mall and just have some me time. (Future note: make a list of things I need to do). I'm even thinking about not contacting anyone during this time, just being by myself. It's going to be a very different experience and one that I'm gonna really try to take advantage of. It's time for me. 

Side note: I'm going to try to blog my experiences this year every day (or at least every other day) and just have a place to vent about whatever is bothering me.